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Kent Wears My Glasses | Los Angeles, CA | 1990

In Memory

MCHL WGGNS March 20, 2025

"Don't hang up," I pleaded at the last second.
"Oh, okay," he said casually. "Let me fix my drink."
I listened to him get out of bed and light a cigarette.
"Just walking to the kitchen," he reported.
"Sounds good … love you."
"Love you too."

I met Kent in 1985. We both worked at the Ken Cinema in San Diego. He was a projectionist and I made popcorn. We eventually learned that both of us loved to boogie. So we played records and danced until 2am. Then we kissed on the couch which belonged to his roommate, Ernie.

Forty years later, we remembered all that—and the get downs and the reefer and the beers on tap.

I became a fan of Barry White thanks to DJ Kent on Monday nights at the Whistle Stop, which was a casual, low-lit gay bar in South Park where Kent would often play the silky baritones of the Prince of Pillow Talk: "I've heard people say that, too much of anything is no good for you, baby … but, I don't know about that.” Kent and I would agree:

We can’t get enough of that L-O-V-E

I cherish my record collection. And I probably (👀, girrrrrl*) have some of Kent's vinyl in the bins. This makes me happy.

* Kent’s voice in my head.



❤️ Kent Landis Hartman (1953–2025) ❤️





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Tags Booze, Compassion, Dancing, Good Feelings, Flowers, Grieving, Happiness, Kent, Love, Melancholy, Music, Nonfiction, San Diego, The 80s, Vinyl

The View Inside My Pocket | Baltimore, MD | 2024

The Debut

MCHL WGGNS July 14, 2024

Jasmine held a massive cup of coffee in one hand and a bowl of freshly cut mango in the other. Cherishing the view from her bedroom window she spoke excitedly to the horizon of puffy clouds, "Fixed it just the way we like: French roast, a spoonful of honey, dark chocolate, and hold up—cinnamon sprinkles on top!" Jasmine sucked her teeth while pondering the thought, "What are we going to read today?"
She could see the Hudson River from every window in their fourth floor walk-up. Turning her head to the right and looking slightly downward Jasmine apologized, “Oh T-Bones, I am shamefully a better door than a window. Please, let me make it up to you," which she did by sliding the zoomorphic cello case about three feet to the left which gifted the giddy caribou a generous view of the GW bridge.
"There you go," Jasmine said while settling into a velvet armchair with a matching jade ottoman, a gooseneck lamp, headphones, a laptop, and an endless pile of textbooks and novels.
Jasmine took a lingering sip of her brew before solemnly addressing the big-eyed ‘bou, "We are grateful for this day," followed by a gentle knock on the door.
She lived in the apartment with her father, Miles.
"Good morning, Jay. How's breakfast?"
"It's magic, Papa, where's your face?!"
Miles opened the door a few inches and said, "It's right here sweetheart, loving you, every single day," which was typically chased by a dramatic closing of the door so he could make it to the corner store by 7am to deliver the checks. However, today was an anomaly of introspection for Miles which diluted his sense of urgency. Plus it was Friday, and the atmosphere was invariably laid-back at the super mercado on Broadway and 156th, because Miles—was El Jefe. He was also an ardent thespian, so he wouldn't dream of abandoning his beloved theatrics. Therefore, prior to his must-see disappearing act, Miles allowed himself to linger on Jay's contented smile and the way her confident hands cradled the sacred chalice as she savored the spice. He contemplated the sailboat just beyond her window and was taken by the billowing sheers that tickled the smiling eyes of the hopeful deer, who was affectionately known as: Teema, or T-Bones, or simply, T. Miles concluded the scene in breathtaking slo-mo before asking a muffled question from behind the closed door, "Will I see you later, Jaz?"
"7pm, daddy. Is it barbecue night?"
"Does a bear poop in the woods, my darling?"
She laughed. It was idiom week in apartment 4F.
"Call me if you need anything," Miles said while walking to the kitchen to retrieve his backpack.
Jasmine was sixteen and homeschooled. She aced all the standardized tests and received glowing evaluations from dozens of certified teachers. Although she graduated in the spring, Jasmine never considered a life without books.
"Ok T, it's time to get our learn on, because tonight, we bring her home," Jasmine said while pensively admiring the enthusiastic caribou, splendid in rainbow hues, with a pair of pillowy hoofs in perpetual hug mode perched below a flirty set of googly eyes that shimmered beneath golden antlers.
Tucked inside her festive exterior was Teema’s quintessence: a blemished cello made from Koyama spruce and birdseye maple that once belonged to Jasmine's mom, who left the earth one year ago today.

~

"Play that funky music, Miles," Tito said while standing behind the plexiglass and peeking at his watch: 7am, straight up. "Like clockwork, Jefe."
"Greetings my cousin. How's it?" Miles asked, charmed by the sounds of John Coltrane as he entered a tidy office to remove the paychecks from his backpack. "In a sentimental mood, I see."
"You got that right," Tito replied and paused. "I was just thinking about Fatima."
"Me too," Miles said as he handed Tito his check. "Sure you don't want a direct deposit?"
"I'm smooth talking that teller up the block, give me a minute," Tito grinned. "Speaking of, what can I bring for tonight's memorial?"
"Besides your boyfriend?"
Tito crossed his fingers and puckered his lips.
"Nothing," Miles said. "But would you mind grilling the veggie burgers and the corn, spicy like you do?"
"It would be an honor."

~

Jasmine employed a fairly loose schedule in regard to her study regimen; for the most part, she worked from 7am until 3pm. Afterward, she and Teema would walk around the neighborhood and spread the love in various and sundry ways. Today they decided to gather up their friends—which was a name Jasmine gave to the books she read—and slow-roll to the free sidewalk library on Riverside Drive. T would ride piggyback with her eyes peeled on Jay's rearview as they jointly lamented saying goodbye to their faithful companions. Thankfully they discovered a separation ritual that involved an elaborate series of bon voyages and a litany of final hugs, not to mention the cherry on top: While they were there, Jasmine would scour the little library with the hope of unearthing another fortune cookie.
"Found one!" she declared.
Although Jay never read a book she didn't respect, she preferred the ones that had sentences underlined by a familiar hand, where the lines were delicate and the maker favored a graphite nib.
"Listen to this," Jasmine said to Teema. "'She held the smoky quartz in the palm of her hand and gently closed her eyes.' This is a book about the healing arts. We need that in our lives!"
T agreed while contemplating the traffic along the West Side Highway as Jay thumbed through the rest of the gemstone primer and was pleased to find a symphony of fastidious underlines.
Pointing her finger to the heavens Jasmine exclaimed, "Praises beautiful musketeer, we appreciate you!" and slid the cookie into her brown paper bag. "T-Bones, are you thinking what I'm thinking? Yes we should walk down to the river! Yes we should put out that tip jar! Yes mama gots to get paid! Are you ready?"
T-Bones was ready. T-Bones was always ready. 

~

Edna was hiding in the bushes as she watched Jasmine and the reindeer express their long goodbyes at the elfin library. She remained cloaked until the pair bounced joyfully down 155th and were clearly out of view.
Edna met Fatima five years ago at the corner store. She enjoyed having a cup of coffee at midnight and Fatima worked the late shift. Whenever Edna came into the store wearing one of her vintage dresses, Fatima insisted on making a fresh pot. While the coffee brewed, Edna sat at her favorite café table and read to Fatima from one of the books she had stashed in her handbag. When Fatima heard something that spoke to her subconscious or made her forget about malaise, she would say, "That one, sis," which triggered Edna to retrieve a humble straightedge from her pocketbook. Sis wouldn't make another sound until every word was perfectly underlined by her freshly sharpened number two pencil.

~

"Would you look at that," Miles said as he stocked the shelves with iced tea. "It's five o'clock and the square is already filling up. And the drum circle is beginning to form."
"She inspired us all, Miles. The way Fatima played her cello was … I can’t explain it. And here I am, the president of that prestigious music school down the block. Yikes,” Priscilla laughed. “What do I owe ya?"
"It’s on the house," Miles gestured while looking skyward.
"Bless you, Miles. I'll be back at, what, seven? Is that when Jaz makes her debut?"
"So she said, we'll see. I think she's down by the river busking for books. I'll save you a seat."
"Cheers," Priscilla said while twisting the cap off her kombucha and exiting the bodega.
Miles watched Priscilla through the storefront window as she walked over to the square to give a squeeze to Ahmad, who was Miles' brother and also the assistant manager of the super mercado. Ahmad played the djembe and was a regular in the circle.
There was a faint smell of nag champa in the air. 

~

Jasmine pulled a cigar box out of her bag and rested it on the cobblestones in front of the park bench and tossed a few singles into the till before embracing Teema’s soul. The caribou stood close to her so they could feel each other’s energy along with the subtle chi of the third member of the trio: the Hudson River. Jasmine was fascinated by triplets.
Before she played a single note, a familiar face dropped a five dollar bill into the tip jar. “Hey now! I’m jogging to the lighthouse. I hope you’re still here when I get back. No pressure.” She giggled and continued, “Can you believe how gorgeous it is?” and without waiting for a reply, she ran like the wind.
“Gratitude, Roxy!” Jay shouted.
“Love is in the air,” were the last words Jasmine said to the trinity before closing her eyes and trancing out to a prolonged requiem that she traced in her mind using the bow and her fingertips to express a myriad of triangle shaped sounds that were evoked by the underlined words she remembered from the Trigonometry for Beginners book they discovered in the diminutive library three weeks ago: Today we are going to measure volume, pitch, and timbre with sines and cosines. This perfectly underlined sentence simultaneously reminded Jay about the joy of homophones and a snippet of movie dialogue: If it's me reading the signs, which made so much sense to her as she visualized the colors, shapes, and words of every sign she remembered along Route 66 while road-tripping across the USA in a convertible Rambler with Fatima steady behind the wheel.
Jasmine played for an hour without stopping. When she opened her eyes, a crowd of over one hundred people had surrounded the trio and were clapping in rhythmic threes.
The cigar box overflowed. Mama gots paid.

~

Edna decided on a wide brimmed straw hat, a pair of outrageously huge apricot sunglasses, a floor-length black cotton dress, a thick sterling silver and turquoise necklace, and a pair of burgundy open-toed sandals. This was her autumnal look and she felt fabulous as she stood on the outskirts of the packed square watching Jasmine and the reindeer approach the drum circle.
"Uncle Ahmad, play us a beat!" Jay declared while curtsying to the collective who were surrounded by a mob of ecstatic dancers and entire families blissful on their yoga mats nibbling barbecue and sweet cobs of corn.
Edna listened to the slow rhythm of the conga while Jaz approached a faded wooden chair beneath a London plane on the edge of the square. Edna walked around the dancers to get a better look at Jasmine as she gracefully lifted Teema's spirit from the cello case and rested her against the tree.
"Jay, you hungry?!" Miles called from across the square.
"Like a nanny goat, Papa!" she replied while running to give Miles a hug.

~    

Fatima watched her husband and daughter embrace. She was thankful to be under the shade tree again, enlivened by the compassionate Washington Heights community.
“And isn't that Edna?” she whispered to herself. “Oh sister, you look radiant.”
Fatima observed her old confidante approaching Miles and Jay. In all those years Edna had never met Miles. Fatima suspected that her well dressed collaborator would peek through the window before coming in to see her, and if Miles was working, Edna would try again the next night.
"Can I make you a plate my dear?" Miles asked Edna.
"I would be delighted."
Edna nonchalantly turned toward Jay and introduced herself, "Hello, my name is Edna,” while peering into Jasmine’s eyes for the first time.
Jay gave her a spirited hug followed by a sincere, "Cool shades."
"My darling Jasmine," Edna said knowingly.
Jay curiously cocked her head and asked, "Have we?"
"No," Edna said while slowly reaching for Jasmine’s hands. "But you remind me of your mother."
"Oh yeah," Jay said without letting go. "How so?"
Edna told her everything.
After a gentle silence, Jasmine leaped to give Edna a kiss. They both laughed and held each other for as long as they could before Jay twirled around and skipped toward the chair beneath the tree.
Jasmine worshipped every face in the square while holding Fatima in her arms. The drum circle was silent as the crowd chanted a series of three sustained Oms. When the final Om morphed into the sound of a passing bus, Jaz began to play.





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Tags Bliss, Books, Chocolate, Coffee, Compassion, Dancing, Faith, Fiction, Food, Good Feelings, Grieving, Happiness, Love, Meditation, Melancholy, Music, NYC, Yoga

San Antonio | Baltimore, MD | 2024

Dawn Patrol

MCHL WGGNS February 21, 2024

I saw a familiar face in the park; I couldn't remember her name, but she was approaching. It was early afternoon and I was lounging around some picnic tables; in the distance her gentle eyes looking at me, walking my way. I noticed something on the table covered in aluminum foil, the remnants of a small gathering, perhaps. I was curious but I didn't have time to poke around because she arrived sooner than I expected. She told me it was a Jewish holiday and this was food to eat; then she gestured (with a sweeping hand) for me to enjoy. I was hungry and excited about the feast, but I don't recall tasting what appeared to be a creamy pasta salad. Heather, that was her name; we met in 2000 on the TV show "Madigan Men" which was produced in NYC at Kaufman Astoria Studios. Heather was a writer's assistant. She was always nice. It was Heather that offered me the food. Soon after she arrived: I awakened. I looked outside my bedroom door and tried to guess what time it was, the quality of the light; I had no idea, I didn't really care, but I knew I was happy and relieved that I finally got that good sleep, which is my number one self-care goal at the moment.

I attribute my delicious rest to a few things. First, I only had three hours of sleep the night before; I closed my eyes at 3am and woke up at 6, then I stayed in bed for two hours reading Trust by Hernan Diaz. I thought I would doze off after several chapters of incredible financial success followed by crushing personal loss but I dreaded the thought of waking up at 3 or 4pm and having to restart my sleep cycle again. So I begrudgingly got out of bed, but at least I was happy to look out my window and see people doing morning things, like the police on horseback patrolling the trails of Woodberry. You see, I had recently texted my friend Jesse and asked when his household awakened. Rise at 7, shine at 8. Ok, that was my new goal, to wake up at 7am so I could be social with my San Antonio family. Jesse and his wife Julie recently bought me a Southwest Airlines ticket to visit them for a week in early April to watch the solar eclipse in Kerrville which meant I had around six weeks to get my sleep schedule correct. But today I woke at 11am, hungry with thoughts of pasta salad glossy in the sun, which was a bit of a letdown in regards to the hour, but I knew I was making up for the previous night of near sleeplessness so I wasn't really mad, in fact, I was thrilled to feel this alive and positive and the only thing on my mind was a fresh cup of coffee: a delicious medium roast from Mom's called Dawn Patrol (DP). As I walked into the kitchen and greeted my Chemex I reflected on my buoyancy and was thinking my new haircut followed by the nice hot shower I took last night probably contributed to my heavenly slumbers, along with my prolonged yoga session with all the doors and windows wide open to air out the cooking smells from the apartment below despite it being just 28 degrees outside. I was still dressed in the four mitigating layers of various types of fabric (cotton, microfibers and a baja hoodie) as I vigorously stirred dark chocolate and raw honey into my pint of DP while admiring the inside of my refrigerator which I had thoroughly cleaned the day before chased by a solid hour trying to figure out how to reinstall the shelving and the crispers. But today—nothing but sparkling glass and shiny apple skins, a loaf of sourdough begging to be grilled cheese and a glistening jar of sliced kosher dills. Yes, I had worked myself into a tizzy yesterday, yet I haven't mentioned the best thing I did, the one prescient moment that might have morphed my pathological nightmares of disorganization into thoughts of Heather's smiling face: sending an email to my friend DML asking if the trip to DC in late April (to admire the orchids) was still on the table, which was a long shot considering she moved out of our apartment 48 days ago, but the mere inquiry lifted a sadness that had been lingering for weeks.

My mind and body was at peace, for the moment, and tomorrow I might set my sights on 7am, but for now I would sip my coffee and enjoy the sounds of garbage bins emptying on the streets.





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Tags Baltimore, Love, NYC, Music, Books, Chocolate, Jesse, Food, Melancholy, Nonfiction
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    • Jul 14, 2024 The Debut Jul 14, 2024
    • May 17, 2024 The Collaboration May 17, 2024
    • Apr 18, 2024 The Ballad of Sun and Moon Apr 18, 2024
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    • Jan 12, 2024 Awakened by a Dream Jan 12, 2024
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    • Nov 30, 2022 Mash-Up: The Dance of Two Nov 30, 2022
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    • Aug 30, 2022 Breezy Meditations on Urban Still Life - Part II Aug 30, 2022
    • Jul 31, 2022 Breezy Meditations on Urban Still Life Jul 31, 2022
    • Jun 27, 2022 A New Frame of Mind Jun 27, 2022
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    • Oct 15, 2021 My Record Collection (1952-1992) Oct 15, 2021
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    • Aug 31, 2021 One Year in Baltimore Aug 31, 2021
    • Jul 29, 2021 A Portrait of Anthony, Fear and Compassion Jul 29, 2021
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    • Apr 27, 2021 I Was Baptized in a Jacuzzi Apr 27, 2021
    • Mar 19, 2021 Ten Marches Since My Last Confession Mar 19, 2021
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    • Jan 25, 2021 The Poet Dunbar, or, Something About Sanctity Jan 25, 2021
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    • Sep 29, 2020 The Notion of a Tree Sep 29, 2020
    • Aug 31, 2020 The New Situation Aug 31, 2020
    • Jul 30, 2020 The Day I Broke Joe's Heart Jul 30, 2020
    • Jun 30, 2020 I Relax My Toes, I Relax My Toes, My Toes Are Relaxed Jun 30, 2020
    • May 28, 2020 Constantly Camping, or, Tending to Sophia May 28, 2020
    • Apr 29, 2020 The Healing Dance Apr 29, 2020
    • Mar 27, 2020 Nothing but Good Feelings Mar 27, 2020
    • Feb 9, 2020 Whose Legs Are These? Feb 9, 2020
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    • Dec 23, 2019 The Patina of Memory Dec 23, 2019
    • Nov 27, 2019 The Light of Your Faith Nov 27, 2019
    • Nov 22, 2019 A Million Smiley Faces Nov 22, 2019
    • Oct 26, 2019 Mama Always Said I Would Be a Student for Life Oct 26, 2019
    • Aug 23, 2019 Welcome to Opening Night of My Virtual Photography Exhibition Aug 23, 2019
    • Jul 19, 2019 Awkward Ironic Pleasurable Pressure Jul 19, 2019
    • Jun 22, 2019 What is Art? Jun 22, 2019
    • Jun 9, 2019 Being Content - A Practical Guide to Awareness Jun 9, 2019
    • May 27, 2019 Meditation, Mindfulness and Detachment May 27, 2019
    • May 16, 2019 A Bit of Writing from the 80s May 16, 2019
    • May 2, 2019 Professor Wiggins - Higher Education May 2, 2019
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    • Jan 14, 2019 Values, Objectives and Results Jan 14, 2019
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    • Dec 20, 2018 Fast Food Meditation Dec 20, 2018
    • Oct 13, 2018 New Canvas Oct 13, 2018
    • Sep 28, 2018 A Matter of Time Sep 28, 2018
    • Sep 20, 2018 Perpetual Tea, or, Preparing Our Minds for Anything Sep 20, 2018
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    • Aug 30, 2018 The Composition of Stasis Aug 30, 2018
    • Aug 27, 2018 The Power of the Soul Aug 27, 2018
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    • Aug 5, 2018 An Offering Aug 5, 2018
    • Jul 19, 2018 Beginner's Mind Jul 19, 2018
    • Jul 17, 2018 Aromatherapy Jul 17, 2018
    • Jul 14, 2018 Proper Relaxation Jul 14, 2018
    • Jun 21, 2018 All Roads Lead to Love Jun 21, 2018
    • Apr 26, 2018 Ways of Seeing Apr 26, 2018
    • Apr 15, 2018 The Track and the Choo Choo Apr 15, 2018
    • Mar 16, 2018 The Fragile Nature of Fate Mar 16, 2018
    • Feb 27, 2018 The Art of Feeling Feb 27, 2018
    • Jan 13, 2018 I Am Wide Awake Jan 13, 2018
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