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Quality Snowballs | Baltimore, MD | 2025

Bona Fide

MCHL WGGNS January 31, 2026

Today his mother told him to never go into the basement.
“Why?” he asked.
    “Because I said so,” she replied.
    “But I’m 13 years old now. I understand things. Is it toxic? Is it haunted? You can’t just say ‘never’ without an explanation.”
Long silence.
“Ask your father.”
    “For fucks sake.”
    “Jackson! I told you. Never say that word.”
    “Everything’s never now.”
His mom quietly folded the last pair of warm undies fresh out of the dryer.
“I will always love you,” she said.
“Love you too. Is it because of the still?” he asked while demolishing his chocolate chip cookie in one satisfying bite.
“Ask your father.”

~

At 5am he walked into his parents room and poked his dad in the back with a broom handle.
“For FUCKS sake!” his father roared.
“Pops. I want to learn how to make corn liquor. I need a job that pays so I can buy a Mac and get Promethean. I’m a good worker; absolutely heel-toe. I can clock before school, after school, weekends. I want to be your deputy. POPS! You awake?”
“Now I am. Meet me in the kitchen. Five minutes.”
Jackson ran out of the bedroom, brushed his teeth, donned the yellow hard hat his Uncle gave him for his birthday and skipped down the hallway with bona fide momentum.

~


(to be continued)





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Tags Baltimore, Booze, Faith, Fiction, Good Feelings, Love

The View Inside My Pocket | Baltimore, MD | 2024

The Debut

MCHL WGGNS July 14, 2024

Jasmine held a massive cup of coffee in one hand and a bowl of freshly cut mango in the other. Cherishing the view from her bedroom window she spoke excitedly to the horizon of puffy clouds, "Fixed it just the way we like: French roast, a spoonful of honey, dark chocolate, and hold up—cinnamon sprinkles on top!" Jasmine sucked her teeth while pondering the thought, "What are we going to read today?"
She could see the Hudson River from every window in their fourth floor walk-up. Turning her head to the right and looking slightly downward Jasmine apologized, “Oh T-Bones, I am shamefully a better door than a window. Please, let me make it up to you," which she did by sliding the zoomorphic cello case about three feet to the left which gifted the giddy caribou a generous view of the GW bridge.
"There you go," Jasmine said while settling into a velvet armchair with a matching jade ottoman, a gooseneck lamp, headphones, a laptop, and an endless pile of textbooks and novels.
Jasmine took a lingering sip of her brew before solemnly addressing the big-eyed ‘bou, "We are grateful for this day," followed by a gentle knock on the door.
She lived in the apartment with her father, Miles.
"Good morning, Jay. How's breakfast?"
"It's magic, Papa, where's your face?!"
Miles opened the door a few inches and said, "It's right here sweetheart, loving you, every single day," which was typically chased by a dramatic closing of the door so he could make it to the corner store by 7am to deliver the checks. However, today was an anomaly of introspection for Miles which diluted his sense of urgency. Plus it was Friday, and the atmosphere was invariably laid-back at the super mercado on Broadway and 156th, because Miles—was El Jefe. He was also an ardent thespian, so he wouldn't dream of abandoning his beloved theatrics. Therefore, prior to his must-see disappearing act, Miles allowed himself to linger on Jay's contented smile and the way her confident hands cradled the sacred chalice as she savored the spice. He contemplated the sailboat just beyond her window and was taken by the billowing sheers that tickled the smiling eyes of the hopeful deer, who was affectionately known as: Teema, or T-Bones, or simply, T. Miles concluded the scene in breathtaking slo-mo before asking a muffled question from behind the closed door, "Will I see you later, Jaz?"
"7pm, daddy. Is it barbecue night?"
"Does a bear poop in the woods, my darling?"
She laughed. It was idiom week in apartment 4F.
"Call me if you need anything," Miles said while walking to the kitchen to retrieve his backpack.
Jasmine was sixteen and homeschooled. She aced all the standardized tests and received glowing evaluations from dozens of certified teachers. Although she graduated in the spring, Jasmine never considered a life without books.
"Ok T, it's time to get our learn on, because tonight, we bring her home," Jasmine said while pensively admiring the enthusiastic caribou, splendid in rainbow hues, with a pair of pillowy hoofs in perpetual hug mode perched below a flirty set of googly eyes that shimmered beneath golden antlers.
Tucked inside her festive exterior was Teema’s quintessence: a blemished cello made from Koyama spruce and birdseye maple that once belonged to Jasmine's mom, who left the earth one year ago today.

~

"Play that funky music, Miles," Tito said while standing behind the plexiglass and peeking at his watch: 7am, straight up. "Like clockwork, Jefe."
"Greetings my cousin. How's it?" Miles asked, charmed by the sounds of John Coltrane as he entered a tidy office to remove the paychecks from his backpack. "In a sentimental mood, I see."
"You got that right," Tito replied and paused. "I was just thinking about Fatima."
"Me too," Miles said as he handed Tito his check. "Sure you don't want a direct deposit?"
"I'm smooth talking that teller up the block, give me a minute," Tito grinned. "Speaking of, what can I bring for tonight's memorial?"
"Besides your boyfriend?"
Tito crossed his fingers and puckered his lips.
"Nothing," Miles said. "But would you mind grilling the veggie burgers and the corn, spicy like you do?"
"It would be an honor."

~

Jasmine employed a fairly loose schedule in regard to her study regimen; for the most part, she worked from 7am until 3pm. Afterward, she and Teema would walk around the neighborhood and spread the love in various and sundry ways. Today they decided to gather up their friends—which was a name Jasmine gave to the books she read—and slow-roll to the free sidewalk library on Riverside Drive. T would ride piggyback with her eyes peeled on Jay's rearview as they jointly lamented saying goodbye to their faithful companions. Thankfully they discovered a separation ritual that involved an elaborate series of bon voyages and a litany of final hugs, not to mention the cherry on top: While they were there, Jasmine would scour the little library with the hope of unearthing another fortune cookie.
"Found one!" she declared.
Although Jay never read a book she didn't respect, she preferred the ones that had sentences underlined by a familiar hand, where the lines were delicate and the maker favored a graphite nib.
"Listen to this," Jasmine said to Teema. "'She held the smoky quartz in the palm of her hand and gently closed her eyes.' This is a book about the healing arts. We need that in our lives!"
T agreed while contemplating the traffic along the West Side Highway as Jay thumbed through the rest of the gemstone primer and was pleased to find a symphony of fastidious underlines.
Pointing her finger to the heavens Jasmine exclaimed, "Praises beautiful musketeer, we appreciate you!" and slid the cookie into her brown paper bag. "T-Bones, are you thinking what I'm thinking? Yes we should walk down to the river! Yes we should put out that tip jar! Yes mama gots to get paid! Are you ready?"
T-Bones was ready. T-Bones was always ready. 

~

Edna was hiding in the bushes as she watched Jasmine and the reindeer express their long goodbyes at the elfin library. She remained cloaked until the pair bounced joyfully down 155th and were clearly out of view.
Edna met Fatima five years ago at the corner store. She enjoyed having a cup of coffee at midnight and Fatima worked the late shift. Whenever Edna came into the store wearing one of her vintage dresses, Fatima insisted on making a fresh pot. While the coffee brewed, Edna sat at her favorite café table and read to Fatima from one of the books she had stashed in her handbag. When Fatima heard something that spoke to her subconscious or made her forget about malaise, she would say, "That one, sis," which triggered Edna to retrieve a humble straightedge from her pocketbook. Sis wouldn't make another sound until every word was perfectly underlined by her freshly sharpened number two pencil.

~

"Would you look at that," Miles said as he stocked the shelves with iced tea. "It's five o'clock and the square is already filling up. And the drum circle is beginning to form."
"She inspired us all, Miles. The way Fatima played her cello was … I can’t explain it. And here I am, the president of that prestigious music school down the block. Yikes,” Priscilla laughed. “What do I owe ya?"
"It’s on the house," Miles gestured while looking skyward.
"Bless you, Miles. I'll be back at, what, seven? Is that when Jaz makes her debut?"
"So she said, we'll see. I think she's down by the river busking for books. I'll save you a seat."
"Cheers," Priscilla said while twisting the cap off her kombucha and exiting the bodega.
Miles watched Priscilla through the storefront window as she walked over to the square to give a squeeze to Ahmad, who was Miles' brother and also the assistant manager of the super mercado. Ahmad played the djembe and was a regular in the circle.
There was a faint smell of nag champa in the air. 

~

Jasmine pulled a cigar box out of her bag and rested it on the cobblestones in front of the park bench and tossed a few singles into the till before embracing Teema’s soul. The caribou stood close to her so they could feel each other’s energy along with the subtle chi of the third member of the trio: the Hudson River. Jasmine was fascinated by triplets.
Before she played a single note, a familiar face dropped a five dollar bill into the tip jar. “Hey now! I’m jogging to the lighthouse. I hope you’re still here when I get back. No pressure.” She giggled and continued, “Can you believe how gorgeous it is?” and without waiting for a reply, she ran like the wind.
“Gratitude, Roxy!” Jay shouted.
“Love is in the air,” were the last words Jasmine said to the trinity before closing her eyes and trancing out to a prolonged requiem that she traced in her mind using the bow and her fingertips to express a myriad of triangle shaped sounds that were evoked by the underlined words she remembered from the Trigonometry for Beginners book they discovered in the diminutive library three weeks ago: Today we are going to measure volume, pitch, and timbre with sines and cosines. This perfectly underlined sentence simultaneously reminded Jay about the joy of homophones and a snippet of movie dialogue: If it's me reading the signs, which made so much sense to her as she visualized the colors, shapes, and words of every sign she remembered along Route 66 while road-tripping across the USA in a convertible Rambler with Fatima steady behind the wheel.
Jasmine played for an hour without stopping. When she opened her eyes, a crowd of over one hundred people had surrounded the trio and were clapping in rhythmic threes.
The cigar box overflowed. Mama gots paid.

~

Edna decided on a wide brimmed straw hat, a pair of outrageously huge apricot sunglasses, a floor-length black cotton dress, a thick sterling silver and turquoise necklace, and a pair of burgundy open-toed sandals. This was her autumnal look and she felt fabulous as she stood on the outskirts of the packed square watching Jasmine and the reindeer approach the drum circle.
"Uncle Ahmad, play us a beat!" Jay declared while curtsying to the collective who were surrounded by a mob of ecstatic dancers and entire families blissful on their yoga mats nibbling barbecue and sweet cobs of corn.
Edna listened to the slow rhythm of the conga while Jaz approached a faded wooden chair beneath a London plane on the edge of the square. Edna walked around the dancers to get a better look at Jasmine as she gracefully lifted Teema's spirit from the cello case and rested her against the tree.
"Jay, you hungry?!" Miles called from across the square.
"Like a nanny goat, Papa!" she replied while running to give Miles a hug.

~    

Fatima watched her husband and daughter embrace. She was thankful to be under the shade tree again, enlivened by the compassionate Washington Heights community.
“And isn't that Edna?” she whispered to herself. “Oh sister, you look radiant.”
Fatima observed her old confidante approaching Miles and Jay. In all those years Edna had never met Miles. Fatima suspected that her well dressed collaborator would peek through the window before coming in to see her, and if Miles was working, Edna would try again the next night.
"Can I make you a plate my dear?" Miles asked Edna.
"I would be delighted."
Edna nonchalantly turned toward Jay and introduced herself, "Hello, my name is Edna,” while peering into Jasmine’s eyes for the first time.
Jay gave her a spirited hug followed by a sincere, "Cool shades."
"My darling Jasmine," Edna said knowingly.
Jay curiously cocked her head and asked, "Have we?"
"No," Edna said while slowly reaching for Jasmine’s hands. "But you remind me of your mother."
"Oh yeah," Jay said without letting go. "How so?"
Edna told her everything.
After a gentle silence, Jasmine leaped to give Edna a kiss. They both laughed and held each other for as long as they could before Jay twirled around and skipped toward the chair beneath the tree.
Jasmine worshipped every face in the square while holding me in her arms. The drum circle was silent as the crowd chanted a series of three sustained Oms. When the final Om morphed into the sound of a passing bus, Jaz began to play.





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Tags Bliss, Books, Chocolate, Coffee, Compassion, Dancing, Faith, Fiction, Food, Good Feelings, Grieving, Happiness, Love, Meditation, Melancholy, Music, NYC, Yoga

Self Portrait | Baltimore, MD | 2024

Traveling Light

MCHL WGGNS March 25, 2024

So I'm going to San Antonio to spend a week with my friends Jesse and Julie. I'll be flying on Southwest Airlines courtesy of the Kanner Lubbering Foundation for Peace, Love and Happiness which is hosting an event up in Kerrville, Texas called: The Total Eclipse of the Sun.

I'm excited. I haven't been on a plane since 2016 when Danielle and I flew from NYC to Los Angeles to see M83 at the Greek Theatre. I'm opting for the window seat since I'll be flying during the day which presents the perfect opportunity to playact the role of Helios looking down at all the mortals gazing skyward (on April 8th, the day of the eclipse), which I consider an appropriate prelude to my pilgrimage. I revel in dramatic flights of pretending, especially if they are inspired by the spirit of symmetry.

Pretending is manifest in a variety of fashions: such as the spontaneous improv, or the long contemplated ruse, and the most common pretense of all—the godforsaken habitual. I like to be equitable and taste everything on the appetizer tray, so I might start my 7am coffee ritual with a harmless bit of operatic wailing performed for a family of mice bickering in the laundry room, and naturally, I'm accompanied by Yo-Yo Ma who is all smiles as he encourages a skosh more soprano even though he knows, damn well, I'm a tenor. But honestly, I'm grateful for his nudging. And after lunch (grilled cheeses with a side of kosher dills), I'll lace up my sneakers with the intention of walking my requisite 2.5 miles yet inevitably I end up in bed reading another chapter of The Night Watchman by Louise Erdrich and just as I contemplate a nap I bust out the iPad and start writing a new blog and debate whether I should sit by the window or the aisle because they both have their pros and cons but I end up convincing myself the window is better because I can be Helios, and it's settled. Then night rolls around and I think about weed and how I haven't had any gummies or hit the pipe since the start of the year and I say, good for you, and wonder where I ended up hiding the stash even though I know it's in the bin I tucked deep inside a dead closet so I wouldn't think about it—the "it" being whether or not I'll convince myself that weed helps me sleep better and eases my chronic-itis—but instead I'll get on the yoga mat and do my three sets because I'm reborn and I've put my hurts in the same bin with the weed and then tomorrow night I'll turn on the purple light and I'll think about how there is no way just one puff will make a difference. And these are the ways I pretend.

As my friend Doug would say, "We all got to be something."

I think I'll be a good listener when I get to San Antonio and I'll bring my camera even though I have a tendency to use the viewfinder as a doppelganger. But I know that somewhere between me and my pretense is the spiritual balance that I speak of and trust.





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Tags Nonfiction, Baltimore, San Antonio, Jesse, Doug, Dee, Coffee, Flowers, Compassion, Photography, Books, Faith, Eclipse, Kerrville
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